hurm.

too tired for grammar or sentence structure. lists instead.

my brain right now:

life is wonderful.
I am so sleepy.
This bed topper does not fit my bed properly
life is interestingly dark and twisty and bright and spacious
people make or break your day...why? shouldn't it be up to you?
you can't control how other people act, but you can control your reaction
my face is very expressive
i like laughing about something better than being mad about it
choose joy
do right
spread love
chamomile tea withs teamed milk is delicious
children are artists
innocence reads well
pink sweatpants make me feel cozy
sometimes i long for winter
running...i miss you
12 hour work days can be awesome and horrible
mmmm pei wei....
coffee...you save me
someone just give me an iv with a caffeine drip. seriously, it would be the best option at this point.
boys.....you are still kind of dumb. no offence.
i want to watch these movies He's Just Not That Into You, Mean Girls, Gone With The Wind, The Sweetest Thing.
why yes. I would like a cookie.
i am waking up in six hours.
red bull shall be ingested in seven hours.
my nerves killed my manicure today.

love life.
hug it out.
get on the bus.
step it up.
get it girl.
K

Holy Mother.

Performers are really special people. We hurt the most, we love the most, we give the most, and we take the most. Sometimes we forget that it's not all about us and our part in the show, but its actually a team effort...I think that's a really important lesson for kids to learn going into this business. Casting day brings a lot of joy and a lot of pain..but life always goes on. We learn lessons and build bridges and work past it...that's the only way to grow, to become all you can be.

Right now I'm working at The Rep, running ragged and trying to be the best assistant I can be...but wow...I had no idea what it takes to put on a show AND love your cast as much as these people do. The entire staff is amazing. AMAZING. They love the performers and each other more than anything I have ever seen....they CARE about feelings and egos and everything...talk about wonderful training. Talk about spreading LOVE.

"I know I will always have a job...because love knows no boundaries." -Conly Basham

So much thinking....My brain hurts. So much joy....My smile machine hurts. So much caffeine.....My sweet tea drinking muscles hurt. So much pride.......My hugger hurts.

I LOVE THIS. I never thought directing would be a career option for me. But these kids..their passion for performing radiates from every pore on their little faces...it melts my heart. I am so in love with every single member of this cast....and there's almost 60 of them. I'm sitting outside the vocal rehearsal right now, and seriously they sound like pros. It's ridiculous. I always said I could never ever teach high school theatre after I'm done performing, but I realize now that I could DEFINITELY do a program like this. But what if I'm never done performing? That's a question for 30 year old Kim....I'll let you know in ten years.

Ten years seems forever away, but it's really not...I can remember five years ago, and how I thought I was so grown up and knew everything. But time flies so fast...I'm looking at some angels I met five years ago...my angel Stacy is so beautiful and grown up and I cannot even fathom that she will be a rockette in a few years....I met her with shy eyes and braces. Some of the people in this theatre are the future faces of Tony Winners. Really amazing talent.

Now their singing Oh Happy Day.....heart- melting.

Love you Victorya and Libby...... this is for you.

This show is for all the people who love performing and listening and seeing and believing and ART. These kids are ARTISTS, true and true.

SPREAD LOVE.
K

clicked.

As humans, we come into contact with so many people throughout the day. Whether romantic, hostile, beneficial, toxic, or professional, we have no idea where these meet-cutes will go. Think back to when you didn't know someone important in your life...now think where you are now. Can you think of where you would be, how your life would have turned out if you had never met them? It's interesting to think about how relationships begin, evolve, and sometimes end completely. I understand why some end, even though at the time I didn't want them to...but I can't fathom never beginning several of mine...it seems tragic. Sometimes we think "I wish I had never even met (insert name)." But if we didn't...we wouldn't be the same person we are. The people around us and our experiences with those people shape us as people...we all have a constant influence on one another.
Sometimes people click, and sometimes they don't. Those that click should never let each other go, because at the end of the day...that's all there is to hold onto. You, your love, and God.
Everything happens for a reason.
There's a reason I have two homes.
There's a reason I love so many special people.
There's a reason I don't sleep at night.

K

don't worry, be happy

Whenever something bad happens, just know that something good will happen soon. I like to call it the balance of fortune. Life is mysterious, and sometimes it throws some twists and turns at you, but what you must remember is that something better is always out there, waiting for you to come along and happen upon it. I believe that everything happens for a reason....we meet people for a reason, we take certain opportunities and leave others for a reason. We all go down our own prospective paths and at one time or another, those paths collide. What a beautifully intricate web we weave together.

Don't worry, be happy :)

Today is a good day. Although I have lots and lots to do, I'm in a great mood for some odd reason, so I imagine that this day will pass with a smile on my face and faeries dancing around my thoughts. List to do today: pass spanish quiz (ehhh), organize things and be a good assistant (alphabetizing...hell yeah), go work my butt off at the gym (to "I Can Transform Ya," no judging), clean out my car (still has last week's stilettos in the trunk), and learn how to make a steak salad (why yes, I CAN cook :)).

I miss my winship women so much. I feel like I have multiple sets of friends...my "home friends" and my "austin friends"...but when does Austin become home? After all, I spend the majority of the year out there. I've already absentmindedly started referring to it as "home," which is weird and wonderful at the same time. It's hard loving a place so far away....you're always missing something. My heart is spread everywhere all the time.

Back to life
my wonderful, fabulous, spontaneous life
K

:)

Anybody in the mood for some song lyrics? You? Oh yay!!

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments when my good times start to fade
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile