hurm.

too tired for grammar or sentence structure. lists instead.

my brain right now:

life is wonderful.
I am so sleepy.
This bed topper does not fit my bed properly
life is interestingly dark and twisty and bright and spacious
people make or break your day...why? shouldn't it be up to you?
you can't control how other people act, but you can control your reaction
my face is very expressive
i like laughing about something better than being mad about it
choose joy
do right
spread love
chamomile tea withs teamed milk is delicious
children are artists
innocence reads well
pink sweatpants make me feel cozy
sometimes i long for winter
running...i miss you
12 hour work days can be awesome and horrible
mmmm pei wei....
coffee...you save me
someone just give me an iv with a caffeine drip. seriously, it would be the best option at this point.
boys.....you are still kind of dumb. no offence.
i want to watch these movies He's Just Not That Into You, Mean Girls, Gone With The Wind, The Sweetest Thing.
why yes. I would like a cookie.
i am waking up in six hours.
red bull shall be ingested in seven hours.
my nerves killed my manicure today.

love life.
hug it out.
get on the bus.
step it up.
get it girl.
K

Holy Mother.

Performers are really special people. We hurt the most, we love the most, we give the most, and we take the most. Sometimes we forget that it's not all about us and our part in the show, but its actually a team effort...I think that's a really important lesson for kids to learn going into this business. Casting day brings a lot of joy and a lot of pain..but life always goes on. We learn lessons and build bridges and work past it...that's the only way to grow, to become all you can be.

Right now I'm working at The Rep, running ragged and trying to be the best assistant I can be...but wow...I had no idea what it takes to put on a show AND love your cast as much as these people do. The entire staff is amazing. AMAZING. They love the performers and each other more than anything I have ever seen....they CARE about feelings and egos and everything...talk about wonderful training. Talk about spreading LOVE.

"I know I will always have a job...because love knows no boundaries." -Conly Basham

So much thinking....My brain hurts. So much joy....My smile machine hurts. So much caffeine.....My sweet tea drinking muscles hurt. So much pride.......My hugger hurts.

I LOVE THIS. I never thought directing would be a career option for me. But these kids..their passion for performing radiates from every pore on their little faces...it melts my heart. I am so in love with every single member of this cast....and there's almost 60 of them. I'm sitting outside the vocal rehearsal right now, and seriously they sound like pros. It's ridiculous. I always said I could never ever teach high school theatre after I'm done performing, but I realize now that I could DEFINITELY do a program like this. But what if I'm never done performing? That's a question for 30 year old Kim....I'll let you know in ten years.

Ten years seems forever away, but it's really not...I can remember five years ago, and how I thought I was so grown up and knew everything. But time flies so fast...I'm looking at some angels I met five years ago...my angel Stacy is so beautiful and grown up and I cannot even fathom that she will be a rockette in a few years....I met her with shy eyes and braces. Some of the people in this theatre are the future faces of Tony Winners. Really amazing talent.

Now their singing Oh Happy Day.....heart- melting.

Love you Victorya and Libby...... this is for you.

This show is for all the people who love performing and listening and seeing and believing and ART. These kids are ARTISTS, true and true.

SPREAD LOVE.
K

clicked.

As humans, we come into contact with so many people throughout the day. Whether romantic, hostile, beneficial, toxic, or professional, we have no idea where these meet-cutes will go. Think back to when you didn't know someone important in your life...now think where you are now. Can you think of where you would be, how your life would have turned out if you had never met them? It's interesting to think about how relationships begin, evolve, and sometimes end completely. I understand why some end, even though at the time I didn't want them to...but I can't fathom never beginning several of mine...it seems tragic. Sometimes we think "I wish I had never even met (insert name)." But if we didn't...we wouldn't be the same person we are. The people around us and our experiences with those people shape us as people...we all have a constant influence on one another.
Sometimes people click, and sometimes they don't. Those that click should never let each other go, because at the end of the day...that's all there is to hold onto. You, your love, and God.
Everything happens for a reason.
There's a reason I have two homes.
There's a reason I love so many special people.
There's a reason I don't sleep at night.

K

don't worry, be happy

Whenever something bad happens, just know that something good will happen soon. I like to call it the balance of fortune. Life is mysterious, and sometimes it throws some twists and turns at you, but what you must remember is that something better is always out there, waiting for you to come along and happen upon it. I believe that everything happens for a reason....we meet people for a reason, we take certain opportunities and leave others for a reason. We all go down our own prospective paths and at one time or another, those paths collide. What a beautifully intricate web we weave together.

Don't worry, be happy :)

Today is a good day. Although I have lots and lots to do, I'm in a great mood for some odd reason, so I imagine that this day will pass with a smile on my face and faeries dancing around my thoughts. List to do today: pass spanish quiz (ehhh), organize things and be a good assistant (alphabetizing...hell yeah), go work my butt off at the gym (to "I Can Transform Ya," no judging), clean out my car (still has last week's stilettos in the trunk), and learn how to make a steak salad (why yes, I CAN cook :)).

I miss my winship women so much. I feel like I have multiple sets of friends...my "home friends" and my "austin friends"...but when does Austin become home? After all, I spend the majority of the year out there. I've already absentmindedly started referring to it as "home," which is weird and wonderful at the same time. It's hard loving a place so far away....you're always missing something. My heart is spread everywhere all the time.

Back to life
my wonderful, fabulous, spontaneous life
K

:)

Anybody in the mood for some song lyrics? You? Oh yay!!

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments when my good times start to fade
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a beeJust the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile

lazy night at home...time for a survey!

81 Things You Didn't Know About Me Until You Read This:

1. What Color Is Your Toothbrush? Teal
2. Name People That Made You Smile Today: My mom, a few of my friends.
3. What Were You Doing At 8 Am This Morning? sleeping
4. What Were You Doing 45 Minutes Ago? Making tea.
5. What Is Your Favorite Candy? Raisinettes :))
6. Have You Ever Been To A Strip Club? No!
7. What's the last thing you said out loud? "Love you too!"
8. What Is The Best Ice Cream Flavor? Vanilla and Oreos
9. What Was The Last Thing You Had To Drink? Orange chamomile tea :)
10. What Is The Longest You Have Gone Without Sleeping? Two days...like fri, fri night, sat...crashed saturday night.
11. Have You Ever Made a Promise You'd Die to Keep? Yes
13. The Last Sporting Event You Watched? Baseball! College World Series!!!
14. What Is Your Favorite Flavor Of Popcorn? I like the smell better than the taste.
15. Who Is The Last Person You Sent A Message to on Facebook? Colbert :)
16. Ever go camping? Yep.
17. Do You Take Vitamins Daily? Biotin, ginseng, and calcium.
18. Do you like to be outside? Yes!
21. Do You Drink Your Soda With A Straw? I don't drink soda really, but when I do, yes.
22. What Did Your Last Text Message say? ":) goodnight my love!"
24. Where Is Your Dad? sleeping.
25. Look To Your Left, What Do you see? My vanity.
26. What Color Is Your Watch? I don't have a watch.
28. What did you do yesterday? Went antiquing with my mom.
29. Do You Go In At A Fast Food Place Or Just Hit The Drive Thru? I don't do fast food.
30. What Is Your Favorite Number? 21. hehe.
31. Who's The Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? Bwidget!!
32. Any Plans Today? Tomorrow- work, gym, tanning, class. yuhh.
34. Biggest Annoyance In Your Life Right Now? Not being able to fall asleep until 2 a.m.
35. Last Song Listened To? Sour Cherry, by the Kills.
36. Can You Say The Alphabet Backwards? Doubtful.
38. Favorite Pair Of Shoes You Wear All The Time? Black Bini ballet flats
39. Are You Jealous Of Anyone? Isn't everyone jealous of someone else?
40. Is Anyone Jealous Of You? See above answer.
41. Do You Love Anyone? Of course.
43. What Do You Usually Do During The Day? See answer to #32.
44. Do You Hate Anyone That You Know Right Now? Hate is a very strong word....
45. Do You Use The Word 'hello' Daily? Yep
46. Something you love to do, but don't have time to? Go rock climbing!
47. Do you like cats? LOVE.
48. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags? Who hasn't??
49. How Did You Get Your Worst Scar? Getting stabbed in the leg with an ice skate when I was 7.
50. Last big talk? Last weekend.
51. Last Cd Played? People still play CDs???
52. Last Bubble Bath? ooh....add that to #46.
54. Last Meal? about 5 hours ago.
55. Have You Ever Dated Someone Twice? Yes.
57. Have You Ever Fallen In Love? Yes.
58. Have You Ever Lost Someone? Yes.
59. Have You Ever Slept Until 1pm? A few times.
60. Have You Met A Famous Person? Not super famous.
61. List Five People You Can Tell Pretty Much Anything To? Mom, Betsy, Aly, Marjorie, Ashlee.
62. List Three Favorite Colors/shades: Teal, Cream, anything metallic.
63. Laughed Until You Cried? Of course!!
64. Ever went behind your parents back?.......
66. Opinion on Gay Marriage? If two people love each other, they should be together.
67. Lowering The NO Drinking Age? LOWER IT.
69. Who Are The Best Huggers That You Know? Most boys give great hugs when they want to.
70. do you believe in love at first sight? I believe in instant connections.
71. Is There Something You Want To Tell Someone? Sure?
73. Would You Kiss Someone On Your Top Friends? What?
74. How Many Kids Do You Want To Have? 2 tops.
75. Do You Want To Change Your Name? No.
76. Last Time You Saw Your Father? At dinnaaaa
77. What Time Did You Wake Up Today? 10:30ish
78. How Old Are You? 20
79. What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night? Watching a movie
80. What Is Your Favorite Thing In Your Room? My vanity mirror.
81. Where is your best friend(s)? Austin, Little rock, houses, apartments, bars, Chicago, France, clubs, stores, forests, castles, stages, and dreams :)

paragraphs floating through the mind.

For the past few days I've been really focusing on decorating my new space...the den. My first "big girl" apartment. It's interesting how much money and time I am willing to spend to make something look just the way I want it. As a pisces, I am very influenced by the environment in which I am placed, and it is very important to me that I love the space in which I reside. I already love the den, but decorating my room...everything that goes into it...it's exhausting. I've been antiquing, shopping, browsing, haggling, budgeting, imagining, drawing, planning, and creating this area for weeks and it's finally all coming together. I don't move for another two months but once my job picks up a bit more, I'll have absolutely no time to think about the move. It's interesting that humans will spend so much energy on "sprucing" things up. I care way too much. Just something I've been up to.

All weekend, I've been without internet access. And it wasn't terrible. I thought I would die. Everytime I thought, "Oh I can look that up real quick!" and got dissapointed...I remembered things like the phone book and the home phone...all the information you need is right there. The internet is a wonderful thing, but good grief today's society is completely obsessed. I mean, look at me right now..I'm in a coffee shop/ internet cafe, blogging about the internet on the internet, when I should be doing homework on the internet, staring at other people who are working/playing on the internet...our world is technology obsessed. I feel like I am going to implement a "internet free day" once a week when it doesn't interfere withs chool or work and see how that plays out.

Coffee is a wonderful thing. It really does the trick. Just in case you didn't know. It works so much better than tea. Although I love tea and I don't want to hurt it's feelings, coffee is just so wonderful in the morning. Freshly ground whole bean hazlenut coffee to be exact. If you don't know what this magic bliss tastes like...I feel bad for you. Go get some and a coffee grinder (yeah I know, a little extra work...) and get to it. You won't be sorry.

I like cooking...and creating foods. Yesterday I made the best cheese dip ever. No I will not post the recipe because it is a secret and I kinda just want everyone to fawn over it before I publish it. It is delicious...and sets taste buds on fire. My mom gave me a few cookbooks to take to the den. I feel like there are lots of kitchen adventures ahead.

living, loving, and always looking up.
K

Egg White Omelette

Ah, life. Aren't you interesting? You throw us these twists and turns and try to get us to veer off the path...but you're not going to get me that easily. Go with the flow. Take it easy. Let the universe decide. Don't stress. Give it to God. I finally understand what all of these things mean and I am LOVING the results. I love life right now, twists and all. And it keeps getting better and better.

I'm making some big changes this summer...or trying to. I'm attempting to rejuvinate my mind, body, and soul in order to prep for this crazy life ahead. Home is a good place for that I think. These are good changes though...cooking more, having three vegetarian days a week, sticking with actual organization in my life, and for the first time in almost 6 years, I am without a man in this lil' town I call home. Feels weird (liberating) to be here by myself, but I'm liking being with just me a lot more than I expected. I love being happy.

Now for some much needed sleep :)

"Isn't life grand?"
K

p.s. xoxo

p.s.s. egg white omelettes= amazing.